Growing UP

Well.. it's Mid July 2013, a new turning point of my life.
As expected.. i'm sent out by my parents , attending SAM(South Australian Matriculation) at Taylor's College Subang Jaya. I felt lucky that i wasn't sent to Aussie straight away.. giving me time to cope with this change.

My school isn't bad at all,well there are always bad influence around, but looking in the bright side, i had super AWESOME lecturers! they did their job well, and even gave us extra classes and consultations so that we can excel in our course. I gave up my naiveness, my life in Kuching and move forward to the next stage of life.. GROWING UP.

Well.. being exposed to the world.. i knew how tiny puny i am.. my self asteem went from top to the ground..

Being the president of wushu club, vice president of dance club, top in class, included in the "rich" category...
I thought that it would be so easy for me to shine.. well .. turn out im like a rubbish here.
Straight As are so common around here.. Smart and talented people around.. sports car everywhere.. but i cant even speak proper english..
 It was hell.. i screw up exams, i play alot, supper alot, even tried to club(yet i cancelled it because.. i wasnt ready and i dont want too.)

So great.. leaving my girlfriend is another hardest thing to do.. i cant cope it in the first place.. getting fustrated..quarreling with her soo much that she eventually got fed up of me.. but she never will know wat i am going through.. the torturing process where no one, I MEAN NO FUCKING PERSON WILL EVER FEEL.

DROPING FROM HEAVEN TO HELL
SUFFERING THE PRESSURE FROM EVERYONE EVERYWHERE..

it made me afraid .. afraid of losing everything..
is it a prob? even Superman needs a break.. why cant i..?
Why there isnt a corner where i can truly be myself.. no need to act all strong at all.
where i can cry out my fears.. shout out my pain.. being shouldered for a few moments.. calm my soul down. so that i continue my journey and success..
even u cant understand at all..